one day at a time

confidence.  looking at yourself from the outside. judgement. being someone you're not because you're afraid of how others will perceive you and make judgement from a formed idea or thought about you. does that mean you're hiding ? playing chameleon or trying to be camouflaged? because you don't really want people to know who you are unless you know who they are. therefore you close up like a clam or are awkward socially. not as outgoing as you could be. your nature is outgoing but you definitely have an inclination to come off as closed or introverted. hmm.. what is it that scares you about getting to know other people... ohhh.. you dont like explaining or "selling" yourself because you are insecure about where you are in ways of your accomplishments. you dont feel you have accomplished what you've wanted to and have anxiety or feel discouraged about it. so... whatever.. spend more time with yourself. do more for yourself. hang out with people less. so then when you do hang out with people or socialize you actually have something to talk about ... so is that what it is? you get insecure when you feel like you dont have anything to talk about because you haven't accomplished some major goal. get on it. stop being lazy.