Them

Sometimes I think back and I feel like I've been sad a really long time. In a way I can't remember a time I wasn't. There used to be a light that shone so bright out of me. Its been gone for a very long time. Then one of the brightest people in my life committed suicide. I lost all hope after that. I kept going to be strong to be there for people I loved who also loved her. Then I met you. I have never loved someone as much as I love you. Now with bad thoughts I've never felt so dead and lost. The light that once was 9-10 years ago is barely an ember. I'll feel this way for a very long time. I don't know if I can pull myself out of feeling this way. Everything just feels so heavy. All it was to you was just a nice time. To me it was a lifetime of the deepest love I've ever felt. That's what I get though. When I finally fall in love...it doesn't matter. Left to wolves and fireflies. I'm not guilty but I get stabbed to death.